I think there comes a point in your life when you realize life just isn't going to go in the direction of your heart....no matter how much you give of yourself, it never seems good enough, even for yourself. You get tired of fighting battles, get tired of physically hurting every single day, get tired of rude people, tired of watching the world turn bitter and even when the good comes along, it's not enough to help you or you are just too exhausted to realize it is happening. Time for a change and what that change is, I am still trying to figure out. Time to make some decisions for me and hopefully I will have support a long the way, but if not, I will go alone. 


I will always follow my heart. It is who I am. It's hard to find people who love you for who you are, the good, the bad, the ugly, the crazy.....


to be continued.............................